Before I fell asleep last night, I asked God, "Why?" And today He responded to my question:

PAINFUL PREPARATION
 
Help and Peace and Joy are here.  Your courage will be rewarded. 
Painful as this time is you will both one day see the reason of it, and see too that it was not cruel testing, but tender preparation for the wonderful lifework you are both to do.
Try to realize that your own prayers are being most wonderfully answered.  Answered in a way that seems painful to you,  but that just now is the only way.
Success in the temporal world would not satisfy you. 
Great success, in both temporal and spiritual worlds, awaits you.
I know you will see this had to be.

There is a God and although I may not always agree with His master plan for me, this pain is temporary and only a constant reminder that I am human.  Half a year has gone and I still have time to dust myself off and try again.  Try to make this year MY year.